September 15, 2007
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WALLOWING
I hate it when I feel this way. I get introspective and start thinking about life and my place in it. I’m not sad exactly, but I’m also not happy, I just am. The other bad thing about feeling this way is I wallow. The whole mind set allows me to wallow. I wallow in everything… Mostly myself, but also my caffeine intake… I drink entirely too much, I eat whatever I want, no matter how bad it is for me and I pull the covers over my head and wallow in my soft warm comforters. I close out the rest of the world and think about no one but me. Well I almost close everyone out. There is something about having three children that forces you to deal with them. I can’t say I enjoy it as much as I normally do though.
I need to SNAP OUT OF IT… I will… I suppose. But for the rest of the day I am going to continue the thing that I have been doing so well… WALLOWING.
I have indulged in a large cup of hot chocolate with a giant mound of whip cream on top and a dark chocolate piece for stirring and white chocolate shavings sprinkled over the top. I have my stack of magazines for mindlessly flipping through. The television remote is close at hand. I am cocooned in my comforters and surrounded by my nice fluffy pillows.
One monster all tucked into bed and will let the other two put themselves to bed tonight. There will be no bedtime stories or singing… no last minute drinks of water… just off they go on their own. I am not moving!
SO wallow on I will. Tomorrow I will snap out of it. I will devote time to my family and possibly go to church…
For tonight though I am a self indulgent lump.
ANG
Comments (23)
thanx for the kind comment…my mum had a stroke…and for once in my life I’m going to be there for her when she needs me. To hell with the demanding job and other crap. It takes something like this for me to wake up and realize what is important.
as for your state of mind tonight….we all wallow. In some strange way it is therapeutic. As long as you snap out of it by tomorrow.
I go through those periods myself from time to time, so enjoy your time with yourself and your comforters and your hot chocolate…everyone needs that every now and again.
hello ! i come form hong kong nice to meet you
i certainly understand how you feel. and i am here for you.
Yep, I know exactly how you feel. We all feel that way from time to time and luckily it will pass. BUT .. the hot chocolate sounds like the perfect cure! Just indulge yourself tonight .. it will all be better tomorrow .. I promise!
wallow for a little while, then get your arse back out there and take some more amazing photos!
that hot chocolate sounds deeeLISH!
Everyone needs to wallow once in a while. It’s good for the soul.
Trish
Wallow away, and enjoy it!
Hey girl – sorry for the crap day – I agree with your commenters – we all need a wallow day, where we eat what we want, watch what we want, and otherwise twiddle away the day just to make it go away faster!
you call this wallowing? more like……plopping.
You are suppose to eat chocolate…and everything else. Drink Cokes, read magazines, watch movies that you know will make you laugh like “Funny Farm” and “Christmas Vacation” or ….but I think the best thing I can do when I feel the urge to wallow is go to a “thing” like a festival. Plan one today! (this commercial was brought to you by….)
Be active, do it.
I am sorry you are feeling you’re stuck at a plateau, where you’re neither happy nor sad. I am glad though that you are able to wallow – nothing makes one feel better than a good old wallow! Wish I could do the same thing right now, but alas, Becky is miserable about having to use her nasal spray and has been hounding me with misery all morning so far, Matthew needs a book covered for school and my puppy fell in the pool and needs to be dried!!!
HUGS ANGI!!!!!! Hope you feel better soon!
I thought of you.
Wallowing is good to do on occasion. It’s called “taking care of YOU,” and women do it far too rarely. My sister and I would occasionally have “slug-fest” on a weekend and spend an entire weekend like that, watching tv and movies, eating junk food, just chilling out. She used to get mad at me because I would have to be semi-productive on slug-fest days and cross-stitch; but she finally understood that was a luxury for me to get to do such things!
I’m somewhat wallowing myself today (Sunday); but only because my back really hurts. I think it’s ibuprofin time; and I’ll probably do productive and helpful things later. But, for now, I’m wallowing.
I always called it, “the drift,” but a very similar thing. Maybe its just a downtime we need every now and then.
that feeling suxs. I hope you will feel better and tomorrow will be fine. A big cup of chocolate with cream always help
and maybe some ice-creams and fruits too!
the hot chocolate sounds heavenly,,,, as does the wallowing. I could definitely use both myself… As it is I am listening to my little girl cry because her big sister would rather “wallow” on the couch than play a game with her…. I wonder if I could hide in my bedroom all day? Huggs, and feel better soon
cheer up, after a good wallow….we all have days like that…they can’t all be blue skies, sweetheart….tomorrows another…one big, “there, there, now”hug coming your was…..peace…animal
i know EXACTLY how u feel.
I wallowed almost all of yesterday away also so I feel ya!
Friend of mine used to tell me when I got into a funk, set yourself a 24 hour period to mull shit over, then force yourself to do all you need to do. Doesn’t harm to think of yourself now and again. Hope you’re feeling better soon though.
And sometimes it’s ok to take a night off from being super-mom, don’tcha think??
I do hope you are feeling better today though!