Before I so rudely interrupted myself in my enthusiasm for a night out… I was leading up to something. THINKING… all of my previous posts had been on thinking.

Have you ever noticed the wonder of the human mind is that most of us can adjust to anything. We have this ability to justify anything,  THAT,  to me is astounding. We have an inner moral compass that most of us follow, but we can also choose to ignore it and or change it as we see fit.

Lately I have been thinking.

I know amazing isn’t it.

(My brain has a few different centers, instead of rent it would say Mortgage, instead of Diet Coke it would say Mountain Dew, instead of cars it would be ART and instead of Marc Jacobs it would say  ’Do I really want to get dressed at all?’)

 I’ve been thinking about myself. Who I am and what affect I have on the world. I like it. I like me. I Don’t always like where I am. But I have the wonderful ability to change that. After all I am woman hear me ROAR… right?

Alright so once again I was side tracked… O, the cleverness of ME.

My point is that our brains have this ability to accept and change, to adapt. There aren’t many of us that wouldn’t steal if we had to, to feed our families if they were starving. Even though stealing is against what we morally believe. What about killing someone? I can say I would never kill another, but if someone hurt my family or put them in a situation, I would kill if I had to, to defend myself or them.

Thinking… ever noticed too that the wonderful little guy we all have sitting on our shoulder called GUILT… I sometimes call mine Carl, that he’s all in our heads too. I listen to my guilt, I don’t particularly enjoy it but it lets me know when I’ve done something wrong that I have to fix.

 If your someone else and your trying to make me feel guilty, forget about it, Carl only works for me. There’s nothing I can’t stand more then people who try to motivate by guilt.

Finally I’m coming to the crux of this pointless meander. JUSTIFICATION.

Have you ever done anything that you thought was wrong because you had a good reason for doing it?

Just wondering… Ang

Okay, I show up and this guy carded me. I think he was just trying to get laid and so he was asking all of the older ladies for their ID… Really he carded me… I however am not old… I am aging, gracefully.

I was talking to the Rents when I first arrived, and showing them my camera… I was so excited. When all of a sudden I felt like someone had dumped ice on me from my waist down. I stood up quickly pulling my shirt out and staring down. Someone, a.k.a. The Waitress, had dumped ice water all over me. Not even my children have dumped that much water on me. I just pulled my WHITE shirt out and said ‘Well, if you’d been a half a foot higher, I could have given everyone a show. Next time tell me before hand and I’ll wear one of my good bras.’ So I spent most of the evening soaked, but I dried out.

These were two other contestants the first was the only hard core rock guy. His hair doo was all the rage last night, mini mohawks must be in for guys now. I just love his tie. The guy in the tux was a Old Blue Eyes rip off. My friend Kim gripes all the way through his performances… she finds him annoying, I find her annoyance amusing.

This is Chris…He has one of those great gravely blues voices    This is Ang she has a smooth, full voice.

This is MY FRIEND ANGIE taking home the trophy and a trip to CANCUN for TWO…

I however will not be going.

By the end of the night I was dry and ready to go… Oh, the Northern Express is publishing pictures of Chris in his underwear next week.. I’ll have to scan them in so all you ladies can have  thrill. I also took some okay video I’ll have to post later. Have a great day all! ANG

How much freedom is too much? I get to go out again tonight. Yes, it is once again to the smoke crowded bar to see my friends. Last week was the semi finals and this week is the finals… Angie and Chris are in the final seven so they will each sing two songs tonight.

My new camera is in town floating around in a DHL delivery van somewhere, I keep hoping it will arrive here before I have to leave,  so I can take wonderful pictures to share with my xanga friends. Although I think there isn’t much hope of Chris sliding across the stage in his underwear again… Well the delivery person has two hours to get here… So I am mentally sending waves out on the DHL line… please get here, please get here…

 I am still hitting the water hard. The call of Mountain Dew has quieted, although I went through a drive through and I swear I was ordering a lemonade… That’s what my brain was thinking but the speaker shouted back at me “I’m sorry we don’t have Mountain Dew.” I hadn’t even realized that was what had popped out of my mouth. Thank goodness they didn’t serve it I might have had to drink it. *gasp*

Alright, I will go and try not to be too much of a wild woman… but hey, who knows what I’ll do when I’m floating in all that water… I might even decide to have a PINK lemonade… why not live on the wild side.

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YEA! IT’S HERE!! THE DELIVERY MAN MUST HAVE PICKED UP ON MY MENTAL WAVES. I WOULD HAVE KISSED HIM BUT HE LOOKED LIKE HE WOULD HAVE ENJOYED IT TOO MUCH. I’M OFF TO PLAY WITH MY NEW TOY AND IF ALL GOES WELL, I WILL HAVE PICTURES!!!

There is no expedient to which a man will not go to avoid the real labor of thinking.-Thomas Edison

Does anyone else think of more then one thing at a time? It has always been a curse of mine. I lack focus. I’ll be folding laundry and going over the grocery list and singing jiggle bells, at once and all of a sudden I’ll belt out… lettuce sour cream… 

Constantly I’ll be in the middle of something and I get sidetracked and start doing something else… for the most part I get things done, but at the end of the day there is a lot of tying up loose ends.

On Sunday I was brushing my teeth and thinking about something, quit fondly I might add, listening to the steady electric buzz of my toothbrush and staring at myself in the mirror. I snapped  out of it just in time to stop the tooth paste from foaming all over my Sunday best.

See there I go again getting sidetracked.  My point is that I have been thinking so many different things lately I don’t know where to start.

A couple of you came quit close. Macgilicuddy… with his caffeine guess, Papi went with cheese… food is never far from my mind. Steven said the big O!  Well aren’t we all always thinking about that one… I mean really, You can deny it but… you know you do.

At the time that I typed the question; I was thinking; I would like to see Strange Brew again, I wonder what Gabe is doing? I haven’t seen it since high school. Hockey in an insane asylum. Ha. Man I need to finish my Christmas projects. My camera is going to be here in two days… I wonder if I should take naked pictures for Ben for Christmas. Am I hungry? Nope not yet.

That’s it, the workings of my sick and twisted mind at the time of that entry… They didn’t have Strange Brew at the video store, I wonder if I can get it on line. I’ll probably talk to Gabe in a couple of days… We always talk at Christmas. The new camera hasn’t shown up yet so naked pictures aren’t an option, Like I would take them… I hate the camera with my clothes on…  Am I hungry? Nope not yet.

That’s it, thanks for all of the guesses but my attempt at telepathy failed miserably… I’ll have to try it again after Christmas when all of you aren’t using you brains for so many other things.  ANG

QUICK!!!!! What Am I thinking… right….. NOW!   ang

Yesterday evening we were silly enough to face the crowds and venture into the insanity that is Walmart… I have a camera on my list for Christmas. Target had it on sale, but of course they were sold out, so I thought we’d look else where. Ten minutes in the store and I was on sensory overload. People crashing into each other with carts, shoving each other, and breathing down your neck. Listen mister if your close enough to read the tag on my under wear… YOUR TOO CLOSE… STEP OFF…

Okay, the monsters, yes I was dumb enough to drag the monsters along, let’s leave that one alone. All through the store they had been picking at each other. Isabelle has developed a liking for tormenting her big brother. He says he doesn’t want something and she says ‘yes, you do’… I’m sure you all get the picture as many of you have siblings or children of your own. So we were in and out of the store in a flash and on our way out of the parking lot when Charlie starts crying… He’s one of those -I have to cry, but I really don’t want to, so I’m going to try to hold them in- boys. And then the words spring from his mouth as if they too can no longer be contained.

“I never want to see the light of day again!!”

Silence descends on the car and the thought running through my mind is… I’m sure that could be arranged… But I was an adult, YES, for a change I was and asked him why.

 He had been at a birthday party the night before and  stayed up until one a.m. thus the tender feelings, but apparently he’d had  a horrible time. The kids had played truth or dare… since when did eight year olds start doing that? They had watched television shows that I don’t let him watch, so Charlie had spent a lot of time sitting back and not participating because these were things he knew I wouldn’t like and someone kicked him in his privates. Then he said that his friend Branden had said ‘O my God.’ and when Charlie had said… “I don’t say that.”  Brendan’s step father had said ”It’s just a word.” Charlie said he responded with “Is not!” and left the area.  Of all those horrible things, I would think the crotch kicking would be the worse but the God thing seemed to upset him the most.

Okay, obviously I’m not happy with myself for letting him go to the party, He’s been to the house before and everything was fine but this time I think there was a lack of quality supervision… I don’t think he’ll be going back.

Any way I asked Charlie if he knew why I don’t want him to say the name God in that way. He said “It’s not nice and it’s God’s name.”

I said “yup, is God important to you?”

He said “Yes and we respect the people who are important to us.”

Can I say, I was one proud  mama. He gets it and he’s only eight! I don’t know what the stupid fathers problem was. Even if you don’t believe in God… It isn’t just a word, it can never be just a word… People use it as an excuse for everything, for marriage, for WAR… GOD is not just a word, no matter how often people try to make it sound like it is. I’m not saying you have to believe in him… okay I’m on a tangent. again.

So I said “Why don’t you want to see the light of day again ?”

He said “I don’t want to go to school. I don’t like my friends.”

I said “Sleep on it, Take tomorrow off and if you still feel that way on Monday we’ll see what we can do.”

He said “I won’t have to go to school?”

I said ”No but I think I can make a pretty good blindfold, or we can put a bag over your head. ”

He said “MAAAAAMAAA!”  and smiled.  

Anyway…

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You are Superman

Superman 100% Robin 85% Wonder Woman 80% The Flash 80% Green Lantern 80% Spider-Man 75% Supergirl 70% Iron Man 40% Batman 30% Hulk 30% Catwoman 30%

You are mild-mannered, good, strong and you love to help others.

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Who knew? I’m pretty sure I’m a woman… I’m going to change the A to an O and then I’ll be less confused… I wonder if my husband knew about this… No wonder I have a fasination for bearded ladies. ANG

MAYBE I SHOULD HAVE ANSWERED YES TO THE THONG QUESTION?

Some of you have asked if I’m down. Thanks for the concern, I’m really not, I just haven’t been sleeping, I think it’s been three nights now that I’ve only slept a couple of hours each night. You’ve probably seen my dirty little footprints roaming your sites when I get tired of staring at the ceiling…

When I’m tired my self deprecating humor gets the best of me and I get very sarcastic…

So that’s all that’s going on with me… I thought not drinking caffeine would make me sleep better… maybe I’m just adjusting. Have a great night and thanks for all of the warm fuzzies.

In the mean time while I can’t sleep I’ve been making some really interesting playlists on my itunes… that’s gotta be worth something. Ang

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Okay, I’ve been up since two… I took a Tylonol PM why isn’t it working. I’ve been staring at the ceiling trying to avoid Doing anything… GRRR…

Here’s the new photo, I’m the one in the knee socks. Man I’m good looking. ********************************** I’m sick of looking at my super unflatering destinkafied picture. lol I will find something else.

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Um this is to satisfy a tag from shackpacker… dirty bum… Listen it was one in the morning…I was totally wrecked ,be forgiving people.  Oh this is my Shoes look… Ang

I’m going to tag Bythepowerofshoes, captiveman, rmstrom, and mojo…lets see em people… I have to live with the pain why shouldn’t YOU!!!