October 28, 2006
-
Aww…You know you love me.
Our city reads book this year is Barefoot Heart. The author was being interviewed on NPR tonight. Yes, I was listening to NPR surprise, surprise… She was talking about her father, who is a large part of the book, her mother, who apparently looms in the foreground and how in life she was much closer to her mother then her father. This surprised the interviewer. When asked why the book then included more of her father she gave a response that just made me sit up and say I so get that!
She said something like this. The feelings that she had for her mother were the easy feelings, Love and comfort, the feelings she had for her father were ones of fear and respect.
Okay, I realize that these feelings aren’t easy for everyone. Some people do have to work at love, comfort, and trust. But to me these thing have always come easy. How lucky am I. Pretty darn I’d say.
I’m not sure fear is ever hard, but how to handle it now that’s another thing all together. Respect for me is hard and even though I said it, trust isn’t something I’m always great at either. I wasn’t born in Missouri but I’m definitely all about the show me or prove it state of mind. That’s me.
Feelings that come easy to us aren’t always that memorable, sometimes its the ones we have to really work at that stand out. Yes we all remember love, how it feels from someone in our life. As children we love our parents and it is character forming, But isn’t it the love you have to work at the one that sticks with you and sees you through life or changes you.
The love of a parent or spouse now that’s hard. To allow your heart to walk around all day. To wonder if it’s eating enough, is it learning a lot, are the other kids playing nice with it. Or in the case of a spouse… Is it being true, is it thinking of me, does it love me too…
Now no one get their panties in a bunch. I love my parents. My respect and appreciation for them and what they have done for me grows daily. I’m just saying that children have an innocence that allows them to love without considering consequence that makes it easy.
I’m looking forward to this book. I’m done with my DEEP THOUGHTS BY ISN”T SHE HANDY…
Yeah right… Hey I’m posting, what do you want from me. Ang
EDIT*********************************************************
Okay, this is my pathetic attempt at purging. I must not have been pleased with the first part of this post, because it is now 3:00 in the morning and I have been dreaming about posting since 1:30.
I believe this is all the direct result of my weak attempt at a joke. Earlier as I went to bed I left my computer on the kitchen counter downstairs and pointed out to my husband that “See, I’m not that bad. I’ll leave my computer down here on the counter tonight, I don’t need it.”
Now it is three in the morning and he was laughing at me when I asked him to bring it up to me when he was making a trip downstairs. So I have my appendage with me again. If you would all kindly get out of my head I would like to resume my sleep. I’m snug as a bug in my nice cozy bed and I like you people but I do not want you in bed with me so GET OUT!!!
ANG
Comments (23)
Well, its 630am here, and Im like the cat that sits on your chest and breaths…wake up….write something……….
I woke up at 2 cracking my knuckles in the air while I slept…..but I didnt wanna write
i know my dughter loves her mom more, and thats ok with me. I love my daughter more than anything, and thats ok too. I was talking with a friend once who asked me how far i’d go for her. He asked what if she came to me one day and said ” Daddy, I killed some one” to which i said my answer would be ” Baby, we have a body to hide.”
We would do anything for our daughters. Its ok they love Mama more, were men and thats just fine with us.
Ahh, Ang, I’m crushed! The utmost crulty here, you threw me out of bed? How dare you. Ha-ha, your trully hooked.
RYC- Thank you for the nice comment about Gunner. It means a bunch!
Rach
You think to much.
haha, addicted!
i think our magazine editor-in-chief is supposed to be commenting on npr at some point soon.
Daughter just so you know I don’t wear panties and my boxers aren’t in a bunch. It’s good to know you have such deep thoughts and I hope I didn’t make your childhood miserable with fear. As I look at my “whole ” family I think that we did good in our walk through life. I marvel at the surprises that we get as we live our lives. The memory’s created the mile stones marked and the hurdles that we have cleared. I think of how time has not waited for anyone and how it moves faster as we get older. The fishing trips promised and not completed . Who gains from those things but us as a whole.
Four Grandchildren
Daughter that is a principal and I thought I didn’t spank her enough.
Daughter who is focused on making her family her TOP priority in life.
And a Mom and Pop who watch marvel at it all.
Love
well, at least you didn’t dream about being on a farm working with cows or in a stable working with horses, lol. that’s what I dreamt aboutlast night, must of had something to do with my day at school!
you crazy woman, sleep first then blog.
have a great weekend
like your banner
Lol, I think I got love and comfort from Mom, and feae and respect from Dad, as well. Interesting.
Which town is closest to Mackinaw, Pet./HS or Traverse City? I think that is the fastest growing part of the state. What do you have to say?
This world series convinced me that experience makes a world of difference. Peace
ryc: you still so crazy
ryc: yea someone on here said that 1 out of every 4 people have a mental prob, so if your three closest friends are normal then it’s you, well everyone is normal to me, I must be a basket case
I grew up in Barry county so have been to that area numerous times. Mackinaw. However it is still unclear to me if you said that TC is next to Maqckinaw or not, or below pet.
ryc: great minds share the same padded cell
ryc: some mentos and 3 liter coke bottles so we can make home made missles
no time for reading… I just wanted to stop in a say hello…. getting really tired… NEED SLEEP!
<333333333Rachel
Thanks for coming by and for all of the great comments. I have been so tied up with work lately that I haven’t got around to everyone. I love the pic on you liberty girl’s banner. You were talking about being snug in bed and I am catching myself yawning.
Thanks for stopping by, it was encouraging. I agree with you on respect, it’s an earned thing.
I want to read that book.Mother’s are generally loved so deeply,I loved my Dad a lot but not like I love my mom.I know some families where the kids love the Dad as much,and it seems to be where the dad and mom are commited to loving one another .and then together loving the children.The have each others love support and attention and do not need to get it from the kids,they can give it to the kids as one. That is how I see it anyway…good post Ang.
My grandparents raised me and I certainly learned fear and respect from gramps. I knew he loved me, but the way to his heart was through gram. Besides she loved to shop for shoes…talk about comfort! G
I understand your deep thoughts… and it looks like it will be a fantastic book to read. I’m still struggling through “State Of Denial” right now; over halfway through after my trip. It’s a very interesting read; but also tedious at the same time… our government at work (or not) is really hard to stomach sometimes. Makes me long for a quick, plot-driven mystery; but I also think it’s important to read this one. Maybe that’s my problem: reading this book is feeling more like a duty than a pleasure. Sigh.
I have a laptop too (for work); but I think hubby would be seriously ticked if I asked to bring it up to the bed so I could post. I’m downstairs at this unGodly hour on a Sunday morning, posting from ABD’s computer, trying to stay quiet so I don’t wake the house up but still get a little laundry done. Last night I was so tired by the end of the day I was dozing on the couch with everyone here by 9 p.m.! We DID have toasted coconut pecan pie; but I ended up making pumpkin torte instead of turtle cake at turd-boy’s request.
Mornin, have a nice Sunday.