Recently there was a featured question that went something like… If you could die NOW and go to Heaven would you do it?
I hadn’t ever thought about it and then, there it was staring me in the face. Something to obsess about in my spacier moments.
Would I? Don’t we all want to go to Heaven? Isn’t that the goal? To get to the good place?
I decided no… The idea of it panics me.
Then I spent time obsessing over why I wouldn’t…Was I scared of it? Was it the idea of dying that was holding me back? Fear of the unknown? Leaving my family maybe? I know I will see them there, I am sure of it. So why was I thinking NO?
As I was driving down the road I saw a tree full of black birds, hundreds of them, some of them took off into the air,dancing on the wind, their shadows mimicked their movements, dancing over the pavement of the street.
Amazing, the sight of it lifted my spirit. I thought of all of the other times I feel that way, and how often.
When I play a board game with my kids.
When I watch the wind make my Pop’s hair jump around, a smile his on face as he drives his boat, grand kids huddling in the back.
When he stops, the look on their faces as one thanks him for going fast and the other thanks him for slowing down.
When I feel the sand between my toes.
When I smell the honeysuckle on a warm summer night.
When I see someone stop and pick up a penny.
When I take towels warm from the dryer on a cold day and notice how good they feel on my hands.
When I get a call from a dear friend I have been wanting to talk to all day.
When I can reach over at night and touch my Honey’s shoulder.
When I see this look-
on my monsters face…
These are tiny moments of bliss to me and I am lucky enough to experience at least one a day, although I don’t always recognize it at the exact moment it’s happening.
So I’m not ready to let go of the Heaven I have here on Earth.
Now the question about Heaven is a great one as far as a hypothetical goes, but that isn’t what I’m going to ask you…
I bet you thought it was!
I want to know, What would you trade your moments of bliss for?
If you could choose one thing that made you happy and trade it for something else, never to see that one thing again, Would you do it? What one thing would you give up and what would you give it up for?